I AM

I AM Savior, Redeemer, Friend, Merciful, Lord, Everlasting, Compassion, Righteous, Lion of Judah, Rose of Sharon, Anointed, Husband, Father, Strength, Peace, Judge, Love, Ruler, King of Kings, Joy, Gentleness, Ever Present, Provider, Healer, Giver, Future, Hope, Rest, Knowledge, Glorious, Faith, Laughter, Lamb, Holy, Forgiveness, Wisdom, Bread of Life, Son of Man, Great, Emmanuel, Awesome, Promise, Forevermore, Beginning, End, Risen

I like to do this every now and then in my journal to see what I come up with. Each time it changes. What is the great I AM to you?

Too Long

I have decided I am not a successful blogger. Life gets way too busy and then I forget that I haven't updated everyone on the things I have asked them to pray about. My earlier blogs were about the craziness with my ex-husband. He is still crazy but I am removing myself from the situation. I have made him contact me regarding visitation and such. I was doing way too much for him. So far he has held up his end and seen the children each week. We have also stopped discussing his marriage. Although I find myself daily praying for them to have a realization of Christ's saving power and grace. Never thought I would be praying for them but God is gracious to us all.

Thank you all so much for the prayers. It is amazing to me but every time I think I have "arrived" God shows me another area I need to work on. Money, family relationships, submitting to Him, etc. Each time the outcome is wonderful but the growing pains are just that pains. Does anyone else ever feel this way?

New Day

I can elaborate a little more about my earlier post. My ex-husband and his wife are having a baby. This is the wife that he divorced me to obtain. Needless to say this was a huge blow to me. Even though I know that I know I don't want him back I don't want there to be any ties to this new family such as a half-sibling to my children. Of course, him asking me to pray for him was a little over the top also. Sad to say he didn't want me to pray for the child, he wanted me to pray because he wants a divorce. My prayer was that God's will would be done and their hearts softened to Him.

This entire episode has opened my eyes to strongholds I had in my life. I have a really negative attitude of step-families. I realized that I let go of the man as my husband but I hadn't let go of my "family". In my mind we were still co-parents and his wife was a non-person. Unfortunately, this is not reality. God really used this experience to show my negative attitude about step-families, remarriage, half-siblings, etc. I am praying and trying to soften my heart to this issues. Jesus was part of a step-family, they can't all be bad.


So, does anyone have any tips, encouragements, wisdom in this area?

Last night the person that has hurt me most in this entire world called and wanted me to pray for him. He is going through a situtation that will ultimately effect my family. My flesh screamed out that he doesn't deserve my prayers, sympathy, encouragement, anything. The Spirit in me reminded me that I didn't deserve any of those things either. So even though my heart was breaking again for the hundreth time I asked how I could pray for him and offered truth. After our telephone conversation, of course emotionallly I lost it. I hate that I let my emotions get the best of me. I hate that I had to confess my sin because of my selfishness in this situtation. I want to pretend that nothing has ever changed and we are still a big happy family. This is not the case.
God's mercies are new in the morning and His hope refreshes us. I am clinging to this. Please God help me remember that You will be enough for our family, You have our best interest at heart.