Last night the person that has hurt me most in this entire world called and wanted me to pray for him. He is going through a situtation that will ultimately effect my family. My flesh screamed out that he doesn't deserve my prayers, sympathy, encouragement, anything. The Spirit in me reminded me that I didn't deserve any of those things either. So even though my heart was breaking again for the hundreth time I asked how I could pray for him and offered truth. After our telephone conversation, of course emotionallly I lost it. I hate that I let my emotions get the best of me. I hate that I had to confess my sin because of my selfishness in this situtation. I want to pretend that nothing has ever changed and we are still a big happy family. This is not the case.
God's mercies are new in the morning and His hope refreshes us. I am clinging to this. Please God help me remember that You will be enough for our family, You have our best interest at heart.
2 comments:
Persevere my friend! PERSEVERE!!!
Just hold onto the truth you know! I certainly don't know your situation but having the character of Christ in these times, like you did when you prayed with him, is what we're asked and called to do Crystal.
Don't beat yourself up over responding to your God given emotions. You are experiencing hurt, it's real, it's valid. I'm guessing you did not let that emotion "overtake" you. Bring it to the cross - let Him carry you through it! Like only He can!
Blessings on you friend!
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